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 I cannot say I am deeply in this fandom, but I felt compelled to make such a post. This is like... based on vibes and fic... and opinions that I didn't think I would feel strongly about but I do for some reason. 

Chris jerked off a few times when he was younger, but theater life got him and now he doesn't have the time to masturbating anymore. It's just not attention-grabbing enough when he tries. 
 
Robert has never once been able to please himself. All his energy goes into THEATER and getting his jollies off of the torments he can inflict on those who displeased him (e.g. Chris) or the performances he can put on putting himself in increasingly convoluted positions. Some unlucky theater member will know this when they try to have sex one day and it ends up with Robert trying to act at them instead.
 
Sandra masturbates but thinks it's something everyone does and doesn't really feel it's worth commenting on. One day the subject comes up and she gives a very detailed monologue of exactly what toys she likes and what fantasies she has or how she acts on them and she's surprised when to hear that not everybody has this kind of detailing at the drop of a hat. 
 
Annie thinks of being the lead role in a play when she's fantasizing. The play involves a lot of violence directed at non-Annie targets as she romps around covered in blood. 
 
Vanessa masturbates nervously in the bathroom after her audition, before she appears in roles she's unsure about, and then finally sometimes when she's comfortable and horny. She doesn't tend to think of anybody in particular but more the situation at hand, until the people begin situationing. 
 
Max thinks about gently guiding others to orgasm sometimes. He hasn't thought about it that much outside of fantasies, so if someone asked him to he would stammer a bit before agreeing and if someone offered to do the same to him he'd probably bluescreen. He'd also never bring it up on his own. 
 
Dennis got stuck in a watermelon once (they said on the internet it was a good idea...) and the experience was frustrating enough that he stopped trying and also feels weird about eating watermelon nowadays.
 
Jonathan gets off with a normal amount of relief. The universe is merciful about some things. 
 
Trevor's still thinking about that one time he and Robert had an experience together. 

May Manga TBR 12

Sunday, 24 May 2026 07:14 pm
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Used my manga TBR boardgame. I read 11/12, soft DNF'ing one, on my last board.

Avatar:

Conan
Skill:
Beat the trap tile once (draw a prompt)


Roll #1:

A 2, prompt: anthology/collection of stories - Aisubeki Fujitsu.

Roll #2:

A 1, prompt: author/artist collab - The Gamer.

Roll #3:

A 2, are we playing with binary codes?? Prompt: rivals to lovers ack - Mitsuiro Elevator.

Roll #4:

A 5, lol now it's enemies to lovers - Smyrna & Capri.

Roll #5:

A 2, prompt: European ambiance - Akuyaku Reijou desu ga, Shiawase ni Natte Misemasu wa!.

Roll #6:

A 4, prompt: office setting - Awa ni mo Narenai Koi Naraba.

Roll #7:

A 5 and the generate from TBR tile. #1060 is Mangetsu Monogatari.

Roll #8:

A 3, prompt: historical - Time Traveled to Meet You.

Roll #9:

A 1 and the generate from CR tile. #18 is Dengeki Daisy.

Roll #10:

A 2, prompt: amnesia - Silver Diamond apparently.

Roll #11:

A 3, prompt: fantasy/magical creatures - Wizardly Tower (elves etc).

Roll #12:

A 5, prompt: kemonomimi/furry - Amagami wo Kimi ni.

Roll #13:

Another 5 and the end. Reward is Witch Hat Atelier.

Again ended up with lots of BL!

~Manga TBR List~


[BL/Romance] Aisubeki Fujitsu
[Action/Game Elements] The Gamer
[BL/Romance] Mitsuiro Elevator
[BL/Romance] Smyrna & Capri
[Villainess/Anthology] Akuyaku Reijou desu ga, Shiawase ni Natte Misemasu wa!
[Historical/Romance] Mangetsu Monogatari
[BL/Fantasy] Time Traveled to Meet You
[Mystery/Romance] Dengeki Daisy
[Fantasy] Silver Diamond
[Adventure/Fantasy] Wizardly Tower
[BL/Romance] Amagami wo Kimi ni
[Fantasy] Witch Hat Atelier

x4 shoujo/josei, x3 shounen/seinen, x7 BL

May Manga Wrap-Up 11

Sunday, 24 May 2026 07:07 pm
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 Read ch. 10 of Touken Ranbu Online Anthology - SqEni Formation.

 Read season 1 of Playtime with Hakdo.

 Read Ore ni Honey Trap, rated it 6.3/10.

 Read ch. 79 of Blue Exorcist!

 Soft DNF'ed Hitori H Online, wasn't feeling it.

 Read ULTRAS, rated it 6.5/10.

 Read ch. 3 of Kagurabachi.

 Read ch. 3 of Gin no Yuusha!

 Read Pink Butterfly, rated it 5.8/10.

 Read ch. 13-14 of Witch Hat Atelier!

 Read Kare no Barairo no Jinsei, rated it 7.5/10.

 Read ch. 6 of Akuyaku Reijou no Naka no Hito!

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Frequently when we reschedule something because of a bad weather forecast, the weather turns out to not be that bad after all, but this weekend, it was the smart move. It seems to have finally stopped raining for bit after it rained heavily for most of yesterday and all of today. It's been a real chilly and kind of gray spring, tbh, those few days of high 80s/low 90s notwithstanding.

Anyway, I've taken the chance to try out some recipes - yesterday, I made chicken meatballs with garlic butter orzo, which is good and I have some leftover, but I would say that the meatballs are sort of unnecessary? And the garlic butter needs a little more seasoning imo - some rosemary and oregano and basil would not go amiss - but the orzo in garlic butter is good stuff.

I also made Ina Garten's shortbread, though I kept the teaspoon of almond extract from the pecan shortbread and covered them with chocolate sprinkles - I made the dough yesterday and then baked them off this morning. 20 minutes was probably a minute or 2 too long in the oven, but they still taste good.

I also baked a loaf of bread, on which I might make French bread pizza tomorrow. We'll see. I might also bake some kind of lemon cake, since I have a bunch of lemons, but maybe not. Again, I'll see how I feel. But for dinner tonight, I made these ricotta and breadcrumb balls. Which again, I seasoned to my own taste rather than following the instructions. They're pretty good if you like ricotta.

I think that's one of the most important things you can do when you learn to cook - learn to make things taste the way you like them. I save a ton of recipes and have a bunch of cookbooks, but mainly I need them for measurements and techniques, not flavorings. I mean, don't get me wrong, sometimes they will come up with a combination that would never have occurred to me which is delicious! But a lot of the time, I'm going, I'll swap in X for Y and I will like it better. If there are too many of these in one recipe, then it's not really that recipe (not that I would comment to say so!), but the technique might be useful just the same.

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Crossovers with all and sundry welcome. Weird pairings welcome. No Good Omens or Harry Potter for creator-related reasons, thanks.
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"Kare no Barairo no Jinsei /
His Rose-Colored Life"


hideyoshico, 2012

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Summary: Natsuki Matsuda, twenty-years-old, has proudly identified as gay since age fifteen. Then Komano, nineteen-years-old, comes into his life. He's always been popular with the ladies, but he's a free-spirit who cannot be tamed -- by man or woman! This is the story of their love. Can Natsuki handle Komano's bohemian nature in the long haul or will jealousy and possessiveness get the best of him?

My comments: First I (re)read the first two chapters of Ringo ni Hachimitsu. The order is a little strange but not too hard to untangle. I wonder how it would've been to read it in chronological order according to the contents?

Natsuki has been bullied since he was young, being called homo and girly. The guy he was sleeping with ends it because he wants to settle down. He has a lot of anxiety surrounding relationships especially because his current love interest is straight.

I really liked the portrayal of loneliness and anxiety for Natsuki. You can also tell Komano is doing his best trying to reassure Natsuki, he can only do so much but he keeps trying. I loved the intimacy between them.

Story: ⭐️⭐️⭐️ | Characters: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | Spice Level: 🌶🌶🌶🌶 
 
 
Art: ⭐️⭐️ | Rereadable: Maybe?
 
My rating: 7.5/10

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My Extremely Square ass is writing a scene where a character does LSD, and they (AMAB NB) hallucinate seeing and fusing with a female version of themself- for the rest of the trip, their proprioception/body map is altered so that they feel as though they have a more "female" body shape (eg, breasts, wider hips).

My question is in the title- is fucking with the body's proprioception/body map/sense of touch in this way something LSD can do? Also, the contents of the trip are kind of plot-relevant, so if LSD can't actually do this, are there any hallucinogens that can (and that people take recreationally/Actually Enjoy Tripping On)?

Thanks!

Resident Evil Requiem [2026]

Sunday, 24 May 2026 01:01 pm
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Resident Evil Requiem (2026)
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Resident Evil Requiem [2026]

Sunday, 24 May 2026 12:55 pm
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Sorting through books

Sunday, 24 May 2026 07:32 pm
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I'm going through all my things in anticipation of my move, including my bookshelves. I've already given away over a dozen books (some to my mom, some to a friend, some to the open bookshelf around the corner), but there's several more I'm not sure about. So I thought I'd try to write down my thoughts in the hope it'll help me decide.

Night Watch; Day Watch; and Twilight Watch by Sergei Lukianenko (in German): Over two decades ago this was some of the first urban fantasy I read, and I was fascinated by it. I remember being very impressed by so many of the abilities and magic, and the "light and dark need to co-exist" set-up.
I started a reread once, also many years ago, and I was much less impressed that time, especially by the writing. I don't think I'm going to ever read it again. The author's political stances are another reason.
Most likely going to get rid of these.

Empire of Ivory (Temeraire #4); Victory of Eagles (Temeraire #5) by Naomi Novik: I enjoyed this series while reading, but there were plenty of elements I rolled my eyes at, and I'm definitely not going to reread the whole thing. But I think #4 and #5 were some of my favorites? It's been a long time. I still have very fond feelings for the fandom in particular, there's some great fics.
I think I might keep these for now.

Side Jobs, Ghost Story, Cold Days, Skin Game (Dresden Files #12.5 - #15) by Jim Butcher: I was a big fan of the series at one point, but gradually lost interest; I haven't even read "Twelve Months" yet, though I might at some point if they get it at the library.
I asked LB if he wants them since he was also a fan at one point, that would be ideal, but I suspect he won't. In that case I think I might keep them a little longer.

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell by Susanna Clarke: it was okay, but I didn't like it so much that I'd want to keep it. I had a vague thought at some point that I should reread it eventually because I think I would enjoy it more without the high expectations, but that's not likely to happen any time soon.
Most likely going to the open bookshelf.

The others I was thinking about I think I talked myself into keeping already, but for completeness' sake: Black Wolves by Kate Elliott (I barely remember anything about it but my review said I loved it so I might read it again one day), A Closed and Common Orbit by Becky Chambers (I gave away books #1 + #3 because I didn't find them very interesting but I remember really enjoying the second one), The Blood of Olympus (Heroes of Olympus #5) by Rick Riordan (one of my favorites of the whole series), Heaven's Net is Wide (Tales of the Otori 0.5) by Lian Hearn (I'm emotionally attached to the other four books in the series and I think I'll keep the prequel for completeness' sake because it has a sufficiently pretty spine), Myriad Lands #1 + #2 by David R. Stokes (ed.) (I got those at my first Worldcon and while I barely remember the stories - though according to my reviews I liked them - the covers and spines are just so very pretty.)

This helped with decision-making, mission success.

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Sunday, 24 May 2026 02:09 pm
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sedative drugs

Sunday, 24 May 2026 07:36 pm
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Context for this wee scene - shift handover between bodyguards, 1st speaker has drugged their boss because his gambling was out of control. Can't find the right search string to get around medical advice on mild sleeping pill sedatives etc, but I think diazepam probably isn't strong enough? Or maybe it is, or maybe only if enough is administered it would cause other problems. Not that anyone is particularly worried about an overdose but the scene is rather early in the novel for that to happen.

“You’re in for a rough day once he wakes up.”
“How bad did he lose?”
“I spiked his drink at 750,000 bhat.”
Pod shakes his head.
“We could just not let him wake up. Keep feeding him diazepam until we’re ready to deal with him again.”
“Is that what you gave him?”
“Rohypnol first, and GHB to mess with his memory. Diazepam cause we got home at 4 and I wanted the rest of the night off.”

Ship Sunday: Gawaine/Lancelot

Sunday, 24 May 2026 04:02 pm
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Gawaine and Lancelot are both prominent figures in Arthurian Legend. They meet as rivals, but soon become brothers-in-arms and great friends. Although, depending which stories one follows, they are doomed to betray each other, even leading to their deaths. Many fans are drawn to the pair because of the tragedy of brothers-in-arms growing to hate one another, where others rewrite their story in fanworks, giving them a happier ending.

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🔊 Daily music

Sunday, 24 May 2026 01:31 pm
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@ Spotify

Baby, you are my essence
Let me make a confession
You're all I talk about when you're not around
I need you in my presence
You always know what to say to me
You're everything from my A to Z
You're the only thing saving me
I need you now
🎤
Oliver Tree - Essence (feat. Super Computer)

Culinary

Sunday, 24 May 2026 06:52 pm
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This week's bread: a loaf of Marriage's Organic Country Fayre Malted Brown Bread Flour, v nice.

Friday night supper: ven pongal (S Indian khichchari).

Saturday breakfast rolls: Tassajarra method, 50/50% white/wholemeal spelt flour. molasses, raisins: turned out rather well.

Today's lunch: a sort-of cassoulet thing, with the other half-pack of pancetta, Belazu Judion Butter Beans, garlic, onion, bay leaves, 5-pepper blend, panko breadcrumbs, worked pretty well; served with buttered spinach and chicory quartered, healthy-grilled in pumpkin seed oil and drizzled with lime and lemongrass balsamic vinegar.

Recent DNFs

Sunday, 24 May 2026 10:54 am
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I really want to find some more hockey romance to read, and it's not going well. I will keep trying authors, I guess.

Season's Change by Cait Nary - Found myself just trying to get through it. No sense of connection between the MMCs. I saw someone say it read like RPF of players on one of the Pennsylvania teams. Might be a case of 'you should know a/b is meant to be x/y', but I am too unfamiliar with eastern conference stuff to even recognize the names some people have said these MMCs are supposed to be expies of.

For the hockey side of it: They play in a fictional league called NAHA. In the NAHA, players have not negotiated for private hotel rooms. This allows for more forced proximity. I am a big fan of this approach. If you don't want to stick to how the NHL works, just don't have the NHL. Make it clear, own it. Don't have me asking if this person just didn't bother to learn anything about hockey.

It's possible that I'd really like a later book by this author. I do like things about the book and the approach, but yeah this first book felt like I was reading fic for a show I didn't watch.

Pucking Strong by Emily Rath - Holy shit it's not for me. I listened on audiobook and struggled with the Sanctuary Moon style voice acting. That should have been a clue that this was going to be all high drama and no grounding. Just pure turn off your brain, all concepts of realism, ethics... everything...

This is the fourth book in her Jacksonville Rays series and a few people have recced this specific book to me. For a long while I didn't try this book because I suspected it would be the exact sort of book that it turned out to be. I don't really know how to characterize this sort of romance book without sounding like I am making fun of it, but it's very freewheeling.

The hockey of it: I didn't make it that far. I noped out when the uke twink needed to fly to Norway to help transport the injured kid the alpha hockey player suddenly got custody of.

Ancillary Justice by Ann Leckie - Again, just not for me. I think if I'd come across this years ago when I was struggling to find books to read I might have gotten into it. It's a lot of heavy politics and world building around characters I just did not care about. It might be amazing eventually, but I just cannot commit this much brain space to a maybe. Especially when there are conversations about the ethics of surrendering to imperial powers. At what point do you sacrifice identity to save some lives?

I am glad I tried it. It's a series very associated with Murderbot and Martha Wells has talked about the series. Maybe someday I'll get back to it, but probably not.

Poem

Sunday, 24 May 2026 01:45 pm
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I'm delaying on my other post to write down a poem I saw on the dorm bulletin. 

    Finally, Some Concrete Career Advice

    Don't be an actor. God observes you
    violent in a scene and, thinking it is real, mistakenly
    adds you to Hell. This happens all the time.
    It's like when I traveled 
    across eight states in shattering
    pain to curl beside L as she left this Earth, only to later
    have a dream I'd instead stayed home
    eating fruit cups and sewing a patch on my jeans.
    I didn't know a dream
    could undo a true event, uncement it,
    but it did—from then on, I hadn't gone, and how
    do I live with myself now, I ask each day—

There was no author mentioned. (But internet researcher rionleanheart found it to be Natalie Shapero.)

It sounds like a story about thinking a dream could overwrite a real event. An odd happening where it's possible to feel guilty over something that didn't happen that you didn't do, that you did the opposite of. How strange. It makes me think of moral OCD or other forms of religious horror. 

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